Peace at last!

I've been praying that above all, I would have a sense of peace about our final decision with this job. Although I still wonder about many of the aspects, the only decision that gives me peace is to turn it down. I worked hard for my degree, gained a lot of experience in the adoption world and know that when it's time to focus on my career, adoption is where I will look first. When it comes down to it, my kids are my priority right now. I don't believe in living life with regrets, and I think if I were to take the job I would regret missing these days with our kids.

I'm humbled by the possibility of what the job entails. After I placed my daughter for adoption (almost 11 years ago) I always knew I would someday help other moms in similar situations. I have done that, and hope to do it forever. What I never realized is how much that decision would soften my heart for couples who are not able to have biological children. I thank the Lord every day for all three of my kids and for giving me the gift of pregnancy. My heart breaks every time I hear about couples who struggle with infertility. I want to fix it and make it all better. I want to hand them a baby and know their future is bright. I never imagined that this passion would grow in my heart after the pain of placing my daughter. I know that God put that there for a reason and will continue to bless the desire he began, IN HIS TIME.

Thanks again for your support. I have been really struggling with this decision....losing sleep, not focused on daily tasks, etc. I am relieved to have it behind me and know that God has big things in store for us!