Saturday, March 28, 2009

There are BIG steps...and there are BABY steps...

I'm just not sure how to categorize the one we took today.

When we lived in NY, we were fortunate to have family close to help with childcare. On top of that, we worked with the teens at church so we had a natural line to a list of babysitters. To be honest, we only used a select few...4 to be exact. My three cousins, Katie, Jenna and Nicole and our long-time sitter, Becca! It was so nice to have people we trusted without a doubt to watch the kids. We were heart broken to move far from them. Not just because they were convenient sitters, but because they did love our kids so much and "babysitting" meant something different with these girls. Each time they were with the kids, it was another stage of bonding with them.

Since moving south we have been blessed (10x over) to have Mike's folks close. They have been the only "babysitters" in our home since July! We are not complaining at all! At the same time, there comes a time when there must be a back-up. We've known that for 9 months, but I've been nervous to take the necessary steps to find that back-up.

Until now! So in some senses, today was a BABY step because it was the first time I left the kids with a new sitter. Really though, it felt like a BIG step to me. I had this overwhelming sense of this being home after taking our sitter home. We are making connections. We are familiar enough with our surroundings to need a babysitter. We are involved enough with outside activities to have conflicts with schedules that demand a sitter. Our kids are settled enough to enjoy having someone different in our home to play with. And strangely enough, for as much as I thought I would be a wreck with a new sitter...it was great!

This young lady is a great match for Paige, and meshes well with the entire family. She has the same attitude about "babysitting" as our girls up north . To some people, this may not be a BIG step, but it feels like it to me! It has been 9 months and I am JUST STARTING to feel a sense of "home"...sometimes! There will always be some sadness of missing NY (and our amazing "babysitters" there), but it does feel good to begin feeling a sense of normalcy in our new world.

So I am thankful I took the BABY step of calling a "babysitter" in order have the sense of accomplishing a BIG step!

4 comments:

Sue said...

Hey Liss,
I am so-o thankful that all went well with your sitter and Paige and Nathan. What did Paige say after you took the sitter home? Did she give you the 'low-down' as to what they did and what "she (the sitter)said to her and Nathan?
I thank our Lord that you are beginning to feel 'at home' down there. I cannot fathom the culture shock - as people and life are very differnet down there than they are up here. That makes life so very interesting and fun for me.
Love you bunches,
Mom

Wen said...

I completely understand where you are coming from! We've only had our moms watch Jordan. You are not alone!

Glad you are feeling more settled all the time!

April said...

What a wonderful accomplishment. I am a firm believer that it doesn't make you a bad mother to take a few moments for yourself. One day you will see that it actually makes you a better mother!

lori said...

Hi, I found your blog from Angie's blog. You and my daughter share the same name.
Your comment about your oldest being given up for adotion is what led me here, I adopted so I wanted to read from the other side of that journey.
Your blog is great and i will stop back from time to time.

ps
do you ever find your name on a cup or a key chain or anyting, my Elissa gets so mad we can find her brother everywhere but we never see her name.